| Location | Sudbury |
| Age | 0 |
| Date of Birth | 3/2008 |
| Date of Death | 3/2008 |
| Visitors | 3,042 since 25/03/2008 |
| Creator |
Eryn was born sleeping at 09:17 on Sunday 9th March 2008. She was 40 +2
Eryn died due to meconium aspiration & group B Strep.
My little pudding was perfect ten fingers, ten toes, everything perfect. She is now in heaven with
her nanny Gill and Uncle Aaron.
Her mummy and daddy miss her very much xxx
I had a difficult early pregnancy, I was very sick and ended up in hospital for 5 days as I was
extremely dehydrated. We were then high risk for Downs and had to make the decision to risk having a
amnio, we took it and three very long days later we were given the all clear. We were so relieved
and thought we had lived through the worst. The rest of the pregnancy thanks to anti sickness
tablets went well. We had the 4d scan, bought every picture and dvd, think we would have bought the
tshirt if one was available. Her name was chosen as soon as we knew we were pregnant so it felt like
we knew almost everything about her even before she arrived. On Sat 8th March I started getting
pains, I went to the cds and was told I was only 1cm dilated so I should go home, they are the
experts so you don't question them, they checked her heart briefly and all seemed well, I was
nervous but so excited, we went home to wait. By Sunday morning I was in a lot of pain, she didn't
seem very active but I just thought thats because I'm in labour. We arrived at hospital and was seen
quite quickly, the midwife checked Eryn's heart beat with the probe and said it seemed fine, but she
would put me on the monitor to be sure. She hooked it all up and we heard the heartbeat, I smiled at
Steven and said thank god at which point pudding gave me a kick. The midwife gave me a drink and
said that if the heart goes below 100bpm to press the button, the door had not even closed behind
her and it started dropping rapidly, 100, 90, 80 it just kept dropping I screamed at Steven to press
the button but in my head I just though the belt had moved. The midwife ran in and pulled the
emergency button thats when all **** broke loose. There were about 10 people in the room all talking
medical jargon, Steven was pushed away and it was only then that I started to worry. They told me I
needed an emergency c-section and that I would be given a general, Steven ran alongside my bed, I
told him I loved him and to look after Eryn until I woke up. I was then in theatre and before I knew
it I was counting backwards. I woke up in recovery and the nurse calling my name could not look me
in the eye, I asked her if Eryn was ok and she just said that someone would come and speak to me. I
knew that second. Steven and a consultant came in next and told me. No one gave me a reason no one
could tell me why. We spent two days at the hospital and was lucky enough to have Eryn with us in a
special room. She looked perfect, I looked all over to see if I could find an answer, I dressed her
and on the Monday I said goodbye. I just cant believe it, everyday I think that if I had gone in
earlier would things be different? I will never know. I miss her so much, for seconds I still catch
myself thinking I'm pregnant as I'm still recovering from the operation and still have a very
swollen belly, I feel like someone has taken all my dreams away, one minute I'm angry, one minute
I'm sad, one minute I think about eneding it all, one minute I don't accept it. It just hurts like
no other pain.
Heaven\'s Baby Castle
In a baby's castle just beyond my eye
My baby play's with angel Toy's that money cannot buy
Who am I to wish her back into this world of strife?
No, play on my baby, you have enternal life
When all around is slient and sleep forsakes my eyes
I'll hear her tiny footsteps come running to my side
Her little hand caresses me so tenderly and sweet
I'll breathe a little pray and close my eyes and embrace her in my sleep
Now i have treasure I rate above all other
I have known true glory- i am still her mother xx
First Time Ever I Saw Your Face
The first time ever I saw your face
I thought the sun rose in your eyes
And the moon and stars were the gifts you gave
To the dark and the empty skies, my love,
To the dark and the empty skies.
The first time ever I kissed your mouth
And felt your heart beat close to mine
Like the trembling heart of a captive bird
That was there at my command, my love
That was there at my command.
And the first time ever I lay with you
I felt your heart so close to mine
And I knew our joy would fill the earth
And last till the end of time my love
It would last till the end of time my love
The first time ever I saw your face, your face,
your face, your face
this is so similar.....
i am new to this site and computers!! just read what happened to you and your baby eryn. My baby caitlyn was born on the 3rd march 2008 and died on the 4th im totally heartbroken and a great sadness is enveloping me. She was 11 days overdue and a healthy 8lb 2. She was born in thick meconuim waters which affected her lungs...How we ever get through this i dont know. Just wanted to send you a big hug
Eryn, your mummy keeps blaming herself for you being taken away, i wish i could make her see that it is not her fault you were taken and that she is still the perfect mummy even though you are not with her here. You are with her in a different way. Eryn, please keep mummy and dadddy strong, they are truely wonderful people and the best mummy and daddy you could ever wish for. Mummy thinks she's done something wrong and that she doesn't deserve you..... i wish you could show her and daddy that you are ok in heaven and are the perfect little angel i know you are, and they did nothing wrong.
I long to make things better for your wonderful family.....please always keep mummy and daddy strong and stay close to them always.
Lots of love to a very special little angel
Annie xxx
Angel in heaven. Author unknown
Theres a special angel in heaven
that is a part of me.
It is not where i wanted her
but where god wanted her to be.
She was here but just a moment
like a night time shooting star.
And though she is in heaven
she isn't very far.
She touched the heart of many
like only an angel can do.
I would've held her every minute
if the end i only knew.
So i send this special message
to the heaven up above.
Please take care of my angel
and send her all my love.
What Makes A Mother
I thought of you and closed my eyes; and prayed to God today I asked what makes a Mother and I know I heard him say.. A Mother has a baby, this we know is true. But God can you be a Mother, when your baby's not with you?
Yes you can, he replied with confidence in his voice I give many women babies, when they leave is not their choice. Some I send for a lifetime; and others for a day And some I send to feel your womb, but there's no need to stay.
I just don't understand this God, I want my baby here He took a breath and cleared his throat; and then I saw a tear. I wish I could show you, what your child is doing today If you could see your child smile with other kids and say 'We go to earth to learn our lessons of Love and Life and Fear, My Mommy Loved me oh so much, I got to come straight here..
I feel so lucky to have a Mom, who had so much love for me I learned my lesson very quickly, My mommy set me free. I miss my Mommy oh so much but I visit her each day when she goes to sleep, on her pillow's where I lay.
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek; and whisper in her ear Mommy don't be sad today, I'm your baby and I'm here.' So you see my dear sweet one, your children are okay Your babies are here in my home; And this is where they'll stay. They'll wait for you with me, until your lesson is through And on the day that you come home; they'll be at the gates for you.
So, now you see what makes a Mother, it's the feeling in your heart It's the Love you had so much of; right from the very start.
For Kayla...Tiny Footprints
When a baby arrives,
be it for a day, a month, a year or more,
or perhaps only a sweet flickering moment-
the fragile spark of a tender soul
the secret swell of a new pregnancy
the goldfish flutter known to only you-
you are unmistakeningly changed...
the tiny footprints Eryn has left behind on your heart
bespeak your name as Mother.
Love you so much, and your beautiful daughter...
who will always be in my heart and thoughts...just like you x
lines from a poem
Only a bell and a bird break the stillness . . . .
It seems that the two talk to the setting sun.
Golden coloured silence, the afternoon is made of crystals.
A roving purity sways the cool trees,
and beyond all that,
a transparent river dreams that trampling over pearls,
it breaks loose,
and flows into infinity . . . . .
My Mommy
My mom, she tells a lot of lies,
She never did before.
But from now on until she dies,
She'll tell a whole lot more.
Ask my mom how she is
And because she can't explain,
She will tell a little white lie
cause she can't describe the pain.
Ask my mom how she is,
She'll say 'I'm alright.'
If that's the truth,then tell me,
why does she cry each night?
Ask my mom how she is,
She seems to cope well.
She didn't have a choice you see,
Nor the strength to yell.
Ask my mom how she is,
'I'm fine,I'm well,I'm coping.'
For God's sake mom,just tell the truth,
Just say your heart is broken.
She'll love me all he life,
I loved her all of mine.
But if you ask her how she is,
She'll lie and say she's fine.
I am here in Heaven.
I cannot hug from here.
If she lies to you dont't listen,
Hug her and hold her near.
On the day we meet again,
We'll smile and I'll be bold.
I'll say 'You're lucky to get in here,mom,
With all the lies you told!'
Help Mummy to Understand
Hello Little Eryn we are all missing you terribly and all our hopes and dreams have been shattered because you've had to go away.
Mummy and Daddy are hurting the most and both wishing they had done things differently.
Please can you or their angels send them a white feather each to let them know that you know they always did the best they could and they never had the power or opportunity to stop you from going to heaven.
Perfect baby rest easy I promise to take care of Mummy and Daddy as best I can.
Love and miss you always and forever
xxx
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