| Location | Sudbury |
| Age | 0 |
| Date of Birth | 3/2008 |
| Date of Death | 3/2008 |
| Visitors | 3,043 since 25/03/2008 |
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Eryn was born sleeping at 09:17 on Sunday 9th March 2008. She was 40 +2
Eryn died due to meconium aspiration & group B Strep.
My little pudding was perfect ten fingers, ten toes, everything perfect. She is now in heaven with
her nanny Gill and Uncle Aaron.
Her mummy and daddy miss her very much xxx
I had a difficult early pregnancy, I was very sick and ended up in hospital for 5 days as I was
extremely dehydrated. We were then high risk for Downs and had to make the decision to risk having a
amnio, we took it and three very long days later we were given the all clear. We were so relieved
and thought we had lived through the worst. The rest of the pregnancy thanks to anti sickness
tablets went well. We had the 4d scan, bought every picture and dvd, think we would have bought the
tshirt if one was available. Her name was chosen as soon as we knew we were pregnant so it felt like
we knew almost everything about her even before she arrived. On Sat 8th March I started getting
pains, I went to the cds and was told I was only 1cm dilated so I should go home, they are the
experts so you don't question them, they checked her heart briefly and all seemed well, I was
nervous but so excited, we went home to wait. By Sunday morning I was in a lot of pain, she didn't
seem very active but I just thought thats because I'm in labour. We arrived at hospital and was seen
quite quickly, the midwife checked Eryn's heart beat with the probe and said it seemed fine, but she
would put me on the monitor to be sure. She hooked it all up and we heard the heartbeat, I smiled at
Steven and said thank god at which point pudding gave me a kick. The midwife gave me a drink and
said that if the heart goes below 100bpm to press the button, the door had not even closed behind
her and it started dropping rapidly, 100, 90, 80 it just kept dropping I screamed at Steven to press
the button but in my head I just though the belt had moved. The midwife ran in and pulled the
emergency button thats when all **** broke loose. There were about 10 people in the room all talking
medical jargon, Steven was pushed away and it was only then that I started to worry. They told me I
needed an emergency c-section and that I would be given a general, Steven ran alongside my bed, I
told him I loved him and to look after Eryn until I woke up. I was then in theatre and before I knew
it I was counting backwards. I woke up in recovery and the nurse calling my name could not look me
in the eye, I asked her if Eryn was ok and she just said that someone would come and speak to me. I
knew that second. Steven and a consultant came in next and told me. No one gave me a reason no one
could tell me why. We spent two days at the hospital and was lucky enough to have Eryn with us in a
special room. She looked perfect, I looked all over to see if I could find an answer, I dressed her
and on the Monday I said goodbye. I just cant believe it, everyday I think that if I had gone in
earlier would things be different? I will never know. I miss her so much, for seconds I still catch
myself thinking I'm pregnant as I'm still recovering from the operation and still have a very
swollen belly, I feel like someone has taken all my dreams away, one minute I'm angry, one minute
I'm sad, one minute I think about eneding it all, one minute I don't accept it. It just hurts like
no other pain.
This reminded me of you
Everybody's got something
They had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday
That just seems to grow with time
There's use lookin back or wonderin
How it could be now or might have been
All this I know
But still I can't find ways
To let you go
I never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
Your the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
Apart of me will always be with you
Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time
And tommorrow can never be
Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use lookin back or wonderin
How it should be now or might have been
All this I know
But still I can't find way to let you go
I never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
Your the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be
You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will
Oh baby
You'll always be the one
I know I'll never forget
There's no use lookin back or wonderin
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try
I just can't say good-bye
No,no,no,no
I never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
Your the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
Apart of me will always be
Apart of me will always be with you
The silence
A true friend listens to what is not said...
Although you have done brilliantly this week
And everyone has commented on how much better you seem to be
I know that behind that smile and the strength to make it through the working day
There is the silence
The broken heart that no words can ever mend
You have done really well, and I'm so very proud of you
But please don't think that just because you are putting on that brave face that people have forgotten your pain
I think of you, Steven and Eryn everyday
And everyday it breaks my heart
I hear every word within that silence that exists
I'm always here for you
Love you
xxx
Change
If I could hold you close
Like you were never gone
If I could hear your voice
You'd tell me to be strong
But sometimes
I just can't
I just don't understand
Why you had to go
Why you had to go
I guess I'll never know
Ain't it funny how you think
You're gonna be OK
Till you remember things ain't never
Gonna be the same again
The same again
Ain't it crazy how you think
You've got your whole life planned
Just to find that it was never ever
In your hand
In your hand
Change
If I could get to you
I feel it in the air
My world don't make no sense
If I'm without you in it
And sometimes
I just find
Can't deny
Don't know why
Why'd you have to go?
Why'd you have to go?
And leave me here alone
And leave me here alone
Ain't it funny how you think
You're gonna be OK
Till you remember things ain't never
Gonna be the same again
The same again
Ain't it crazy how you think
You've got your whole life planned
Just to find that it was never ever
In your hand
In your hand
Change
You don't see it coming
Change
When the future comes knocking
It changed
It can make you or break you too
You'd just have to make it through
(You'd just have to make it through)
Ain't it funny how you think
You're gonna be OK
Till you remember things ain't never
Gonna be the same again
The same again
Ain't it crazy how you think
You've got your whole life planned
Just to find that it was never ever
In your hand
In your hand
Change
Change, change
Change, change
for kayla with love xxx
My Everything Friend
You magnify my happiness
When I am feeling glad;
You help to heal my injured heart
Whenever I am sad.
You’re such a pleasure in my life;
I hope that you can see
How meaningful your friendship is;
You’re a total joy to me.
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A LAST WHISPER OF COMFORT
I wish for you not to weep
Nor cry a tear for I am fast asleep,
I have gone to a different plane
A little different, but yet the same.
It seems of something I have dreamed before,
I can finally see it I'm walking through the door
It is the sweetest there ever could be,
Please dry your eyes and be happy for me.
It is more beautiful than a new baby born,
I'm finally at peace there's no need to mourn.
I'm forever in your heart,
There I will not die
Where you'll find me
Look deep inside.
for kayla with love xxx
Somehow in this great big world
I found my way to you
my friend across the Internet,
my heart, my soul, that’s you!
You try to make me smile
with the mail you send my way,
you never fail to drop a line
each and every day.
Whenever I have hurried home
with something new to share,
I find it just so comforting
that you are always there.
Encouragement you give me
and a friendship that is true,
I’m glad my soul while reaching out
found someone just like you!
Flying
This time tomorrow night you'll be
A thousand miles away from me
Though you will be far away
I'll be dreaming of the day
When you come back home to me
Flying back across the sea
Flying home, no more to part
Flying back to me, sweetheart
Though I know you have to go
I am gonna miss you so
So think of me while we're apart
And I will keep you in my heart
I'll be dreaming of the day
Dreaming of the day you'll say
I'm flying back, no more to part
Flying back to you, sweetheart
The time has come to say goodbye
So leave me now for you must fly
I'll keep dreamin' of the day
Dreamin' of the day you'll say
I'm flying back, no more to part
I'm flying back to you, sweetheart
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