| Location | Sudbury |
| Age | 0 |
| Date of Birth | 3/2008 |
| Date of Death | 3/2008 |
| Visitors | 3,042 since 25/03/2008 |
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Eryn was born sleeping at 09:17 on Sunday 9th March 2008. She was 40 +2
Eryn died due to meconium aspiration & group B Strep.
My little pudding was perfect ten fingers, ten toes, everything perfect. She is now in heaven with
her nanny Gill and Uncle Aaron.
Her mummy and daddy miss her very much xxx
I had a difficult early pregnancy, I was very sick and ended up in hospital for 5 days as I was
extremely dehydrated. We were then high risk for Downs and had to make the decision to risk having a
amnio, we took it and three very long days later we were given the all clear. We were so relieved
and thought we had lived through the worst. The rest of the pregnancy thanks to anti sickness
tablets went well. We had the 4d scan, bought every picture and dvd, think we would have bought the
tshirt if one was available. Her name was chosen as soon as we knew we were pregnant so it felt like
we knew almost everything about her even before she arrived. On Sat 8th March I started getting
pains, I went to the cds and was told I was only 1cm dilated so I should go home, they are the
experts so you don't question them, they checked her heart briefly and all seemed well, I was
nervous but so excited, we went home to wait. By Sunday morning I was in a lot of pain, she didn't
seem very active but I just thought thats because I'm in labour. We arrived at hospital and was seen
quite quickly, the midwife checked Eryn's heart beat with the probe and said it seemed fine, but she
would put me on the monitor to be sure. She hooked it all up and we heard the heartbeat, I smiled at
Steven and said thank god at which point pudding gave me a kick. The midwife gave me a drink and
said that if the heart goes below 100bpm to press the button, the door had not even closed behind
her and it started dropping rapidly, 100, 90, 80 it just kept dropping I screamed at Steven to press
the button but in my head I just though the belt had moved. The midwife ran in and pulled the
emergency button thats when all **** broke loose. There were about 10 people in the room all talking
medical jargon, Steven was pushed away and it was only then that I started to worry. They told me I
needed an emergency c-section and that I would be given a general, Steven ran alongside my bed, I
told him I loved him and to look after Eryn until I woke up. I was then in theatre and before I knew
it I was counting backwards. I woke up in recovery and the nurse calling my name could not look me
in the eye, I asked her if Eryn was ok and she just said that someone would come and speak to me. I
knew that second. Steven and a consultant came in next and told me. No one gave me a reason no one
could tell me why. We spent two days at the hospital and was lucky enough to have Eryn with us in a
special room. She looked perfect, I looked all over to see if I could find an answer, I dressed her
and on the Monday I said goodbye. I just cant believe it, everyday I think that if I had gone in
earlier would things be different? I will never know. I miss her so much, for seconds I still catch
myself thinking I'm pregnant as I'm still recovering from the operation and still have a very
swollen belly, I feel like someone has taken all my dreams away, one minute I'm angry, one minute
I'm sad, one minute I think about eneding it all, one minute I don't accept it. It just hurts like
no other pain.
This Tribute Is For This Weekend A Little Longer Than Usual. Sorry It's So Early I've Got A Busy Weekend Ahead
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I will light my candles as usual on Sunday
Our memories build a special bridge
When loved ones have to part.
To help us feel we're with them still
And soothe a grieving heart.
Our memories span the years we shared,
Preserving ties that bind.
They build a special bridge of love
And bring us peace of mind.
When tomorrow starts without me
And I'm not there to see;
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today
While thinking of the many things
We didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you.
And each time that you think of me
I know you'll miss me too.
But when tomorrow starts without me
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name
And took me by the hand.
If tears could build a stairway,
And memories were a lane,
We would walk right up to heaven
And bring you back again.
Our hearts still ache in sadness
And secret tears still flow.
What it meant to lose you
No one can ever know.
But now we know you want us
To mourn for you no more.
To remember all the happy times,
Life still has much in store.
Since you'll never be forgotten,
We pledge to you today:
A hallowed place within our hearts
Is where you'll always stay.
A million times we've needed you,
A million times we've cried.
If love could have saved you,
You never would have died.
In life we loved you dearly,
In death we love you still.
In our hearts you hold a place
No one will ever fill.
It broke our hearts to lose you
But you didn't go alone.
Part of us went with you
The day God took you home.
Thoughts Today, Memories Forever
Angela (Christopher-John Rowe) Mum
HAVE A GOOD WEEKEND EVERYONE
Our Lives changed, the very moment you passed away.
We couldn't stop it; there was nothing we could say.
You've touched our lives so deeply to a point you will never know,
We try to think about you when we are feeling down and low.
Sometimes when our day gets hard we will think about your beautiful smile
And if we listen hard enough we will hear your voice after a while.
It's you who give us a reason to go on with our day,
And now if we want to see you we'll bow our heads and pray.
We catch ourselves looking for you still, in the halls and at the front door,
But when we call your name there is no reply any more!
We never thought a day would come where we would be apart,
God has you in his keepings, we have you in our hearts.
Life will go on, but never will be the same,
Your beautiful smile is gone, but it will always remain.
You're our angel from up above.
You'll always be missed, but most importantly... loved.
Just one more minute, God, is all we ask- why can't you give them back;
It seems like such a simple task. We guess people are right when they say God only takes the best,
We know enough now that you're peacefully at rest.
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You can shed tears that they are gone,
Or you can smile because they lived,
You can close your eyes and pray that they will come back,
Or you can open your eyes and see all that they have left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see them
Or you can be full of the love that you shared,
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
Or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember them and only that they are gone
Or you can cherish the memory and let it live on,
You can cry and close your mind be empty and turn your back,
Or you can do what they would want: smile, open your eyes, love and go on.
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I'm writing this from heaven, where I dwell with God above.
Where there's no more tears or sadness, there's just eternal love.
Please do not be unhappy because I am out of sight
Remember that I am with you every morning, noon and night.
And I will stay beside you, every day, week and year
And when you're sad I'll still be there to wipe away your tears.
When you think of my life on earth and all those living years
Because your only human their bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry it does relieve the pain
Remember there wouldn't be flowers unless we first had rain.
I wish I could tell you of all that God has planned
But even if I were able to, you wouldn't understand.
When your going down the street and you've got me on your mind
I'm walking in your footsteps and only half a step behind.
And if you feel a gentle breeze or wind upon your face
Remember it's only me with a loving and soft embrace.
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Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
Have A Good Weekend Everyone
This Tribute Is For Friday Busy Tomorrow
You were a gift sent straight from Heaven.
Given to us from God above.
We didn't know how much you would teach us
About the meaning of true love...
For true love sometimes means letting go
Of someone precious and dear.
That is what we were forced to do...
Although we wanted to keep you here!!!
However, this is quite a selfish wish.
One we know we should ignore...
But, we truly do believe
That God must have needed you more...
Perhaps to be an Angel now,
Full of wisdom and love...
Watching over those of us who love you
From the shining stars above.
We miss you more than you can know.
You will never be replaced...
In our hearts and memories forever,
Will be your sweet and innocent sleeping face.
Each time we see your picture
You seem to smile and say,
“Don’t cry, I’m in God’s hands,
We’ll meet again someday!”
“The Best”
God saw you getting tired
And a cure was not to be.
So He put His arms around you
And He whispered “Come to Me”
With tearful eyes we watched you.
We watched you fade away.
Although we loved you dearly,
We could not make you stay.
A golden heart stopped beating,
Hard-working hands at rest.
God broke our hearts to prove to us,
He chose to take the best.
It’s lonesome here without you
We miss you more each day.
Life doesn’t seem the same
Since you have gone away.
When days are sad and lonely
And everything goes wrong,
We seem to hear you whisper
“Cheer Up and Carry On”
Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
family,
It broke my heart to think you could have changed something had you been somewhere earlier, please don't blame yourself, I don't have answers I wish I did, but maybe the angels took your beautiful little girl home for larger purposes, although it in NO way eases any pain from you and your family, stay strong, the support here on this site has pulled me thru, we will pull you thru too, there is much love, and strength here and you can communicate to her. I believe that 100%. Most importantly please keep the faith, and know you will again hold your baby girl in your arms when she welcomes you into Heaven. May God grant you forgiveness, love, patients, and understanding. God Bless your family.....
Have A Good Weekend Everyone
GOD,
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* ....(...) * . * . * .* *PRAYER
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. * . * . . * . *.*. * . **ANSWERED:
__00000___00000 *.*. * .* .*GOD
_0000000_0000000. * . * .*TAKE
_0000 OOOO 00000. * . * .*CARE
__0000000000000 * . ** .*OF THE
___00000000000 * . *. * . * .*PERSON
_____0000000 * . *. * . ** *.*THAT
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________0* . * .. ** .. * .*.*READING
. * .. ** .. * . * . * .* . *.*THIS
. * . (.. *** /) * .*.*MESSAGE
* . * ( ..(_)/ ) * * .BECAUSE
* . * (_ /|.. _) . **.* THIS PERSON IS
* . * . /___.. * . .* .*SO
. * * . * . * *SPECIAL
♥Sometimes♥
♥Sometimes when you cry no one sees your tears♥
♥When your worried no one sees your pain♥
♥When your happy no one sees your smile♥
♥When your thinking no one is about♥
♥When you want to talk no one is around♥
♥When you need a special friend♥
♥I’m always here to lend a had♥
♥No matter were you are or how far♥
♥just give me a call and i will be there♥
♥Send this to someone special♥
♥I JUST DID♥
Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
with love xxx
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You are my friend...And i hope u know thats true...no matter what happens... i will stand by u... i will be there for u... when ever u need me... to lend a hand.... to do a good deed...so call on me....whenever u need me... i will always be there...Even to the bitter end...Send this promise to all your friends to show your friendship and watch who sends it back to u.
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I MET YOU AS A STRANGER
I TOOK U AS A FRIEND.
I HOPE WE MEET IN HEAVEN WHERE FRIENDSHIP NEVER ENDS.
love always mandy xxx
little message xxx
i send this littl message
with a flower just for you
because you are so special
and just so thoughtful too
i have been so lucky
to have you as a friend
and any time you are in need of it
i have got a hand to lend
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hi baby eryn just letting you know that i have not forgot about you and your mummy.
my pc has had a virus and we have all had tummy bugs so that why i havent visited for a while but i didnt forget your pretty little angel face.
all my love,hugs n kisses to you and mummy xxxx
Miss you
Do you like your song? It's what we played on your dvd and it was the first time we ever saw your beautiful face. I hope that one day we can sit and watch your dvd. Maybe when your baby brother or sister arrives. Mummy misses you so much and sometimes I have to put on a brave face but just know that mummy is hurting so much inside and the pain will never go away. Daddy made your garden look so pretty today, I hope you like your new flowers. Love you so very much honey. xoxo Please watch over Fudge xoxo
6 months
hello hunny bunny, it is your 6 month birthday today, were you suprised by us visiting you so early. Its tough everyday but today was reaaly hard. xx We just miss you so much, at 9:17 I said happy birthday Eryn, did that make you smile. I think about you all of the time and love you so much pudding. I so wish things were different. Love & miss you my beautiful daughter xxxxxoooooxxxxx
Go ahead and mention my child
the one that died you know.
Don't worry about hurting me further
the depth of my pain doesn't show.
Don't worry about making me cry
I'm already crying inside.
Help me to heal by releasing
the tears I try to hide.
I'm hurt when you just keep silent,
pretending she didn't exist.
I'd rather you mention my child,
knowing that she has been missed.
You asked me how I was doing?
I say "pretty good" or "fine"
but healing is something ongoing
I know it will take a lifetime.
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